25th post

I thought it would be appropriate to post my 25th post about turning 25. I will be turning 25 on Aug,8th and I am not really that excited about it. I mean I guess when you are younger you are excited about birthdays and turning a year older, but when you hit a certain age birthdays really don't mean that much anymore. Even though 25 is not really that old I feel old for some reason. My oldest brother is going to be 28 and when he was my age him and his wife had 2 kids. I feel like I am throwing my life away for some reason. I have the best husband in the world and he has nothing to do with this part about me throwing my life away (just to clarify that). It's just that I quit college, I don't have a job right now, and I really don't know what I want to do with my life or where to go with it. Since I am in my mid 20's I don't think that I still have what it takes to go back to school.... who knows??? I do need to get a job and make a career for myself. Let's face the facts, I am not getting any younger. Sometimes I wish that we could go back in time, because if we could , I would never have quit school. Hey, at least I have my HS diploma (that even took working at though). Without a diploma you really can't get a job anywhere, so that is one thing that I accomplished in my life at least. Right now , I am sitting in my dark apartment (due to the fact that most of our lights are burnt out and we need to get some bulbs), my kitty is sleeping in the living room on the back of our sectional. My husband is currently at work and will be there for the next 2 and 1/2 hours. I am just in kind of a depressing mood today. My younger brother called me before and we talked on the phone for about an hour, that cheered me up, he's so humurous at times. We were having a conversation about one of my blog posts on here about the helmets and seatbelts. He disagreed with me on it, and now that I think about it a little more, I think that I disagree with myself. I mean I guess it's safer to wear a seatbelt in a car than not to, but I just don't think that it's right that they passed that law with the helmets, but it's not really that big of a deal, so who the hell really cares??? Well I am about to go to my mom's for dinner and this is my 3rd post today, so I think that I am good for awhile....."ttfn" (quoted by Tigger)